The Silent Struggles of a Father Raising a Special Needs Adult

In 2001, I was 16 years old and just experienced one of the worst tragedies of my life, the death of my sister Jessica Foreman to a virus of all things, after her double lung transplant. For the next two years I tormented myself with the never ending thought of being a failure at keeping her safe and always wondered if I could have done something different could she have had a different outcome.

As time went on, I dated and tried to gather back my life and it did not go so well but later on, I went to the mall and found this beautiful girl sitting on the floor and sat down in the bookstore known as Waldenbooks and just talked to this strange beautiful girl and fell in love. So her mom gave me her phone number and we talked for hours that night before meeting again the following day.

Then later on in 2005, we had our first child Lillian Kurtz a cute little 5 lb 5 oz little girl, and she was amazing how she attached to me and I stayed up with her taking care of her while Tiffany recovered from her seizure shortly after her birth and I loved staring into those wonderful eyes and god it was amazing, while feeding her.

As time went on, Lillian and I enjoyed time together and I shared my passion for technology with her and got her into the early years of the tablets with a junky android tablet that cost like 400 dollars in 2010 and she loved it to death from early on.

In the video I candidly discuss the thoughts and fears of her growing up and me getting older. Here I am at the age of 39, and it worries me about how the future is for her. I guess maybe that’s why I keep creating all of these videos because if something happened to me… I would want her to be able to remember the good family times.